Firestorm Designs

As a child, I looked up to my parents and saw them as super heroes…always able to save the day!  The teen years hit and my parents went from being people I looked up to, to being annoyances I thought I could do without.  As an adult, with a child of my own, I find myself looking up to them again.  I’m very lucky.  I have both of my parents and although they haven’t been married since I was 2, they get along famously.  It gives me a sense of comfort to know that my parents are helping each weather this crazy storm that started less than 3 months ago.  I know that I can call on either one of them and they will be there, to listen, to talk to and to give me strength when I’m feeling weak.  I can only imagine how brutal it must be for them to have to watch their child go through what I’m faced with.  I struggle every day to be strong while I try to help my own child cope with what’s happening.  I hope they know how much I love them, how much I appreciate them and how very thankful I am for all that they have done for me and continue to do for me…

That seems to be my mantra these days…its only hair.  The trend for women with cancer these days is to shave their heads before the chemo causes it to fall out.  Why?  One reason is because it gives us a sense of power over the disease; we’re losing our hair on OUR terms.  The other reason is because it actually hurts when the hair falls out on its own.  It was described to me as the feeling of having an incredibly tight pony tail that is pulling on every single hair strand.  That is an experience I’ll gladly pass up!  This is also one of those times when you realize that although my brother’s love for me is a quiet love, its a very deep love.  Jason bravely wielded the buzzer and shaved my head yesterday…and true to my brother’s style, he managed to make something sad into something downright funny!  Thank you Jason, you mean the world to me.